Head first.

I have a bad habit. Well, I have a lot of bad habits but right now I am talking about a specific habit of mine. I get an idea, I get excited about it, and then I plan the idea to death. I brainstorm until I eventually come up with reasons why the idea isn't as good an idea as I originally thought it was. I want perfection, if it's not perfect, or if I don`t turn out to be great at whatever I want to try the first time, I get discouraged. I have done this numerous times, I know that this is something that I struggle with, and I also know that this will get me nowhere. 

I had the idea for this site, months ago. I was excited to be able to create something, I started writing, and planning, and brainstorming. I wanted it to be a great represention of me. I wanted everything to be right, I wanted the timing to be perfect. I was putting expectations and pressure on something that I originally just wanted to be an enjoyable outlet for myself.

So I was up having a conversation with God the other night. Talking about life, purpose, dreams, aspirations, the usual. I feel like he was basically telling me to stop thinking so hard and start doing. I take notes from our conversations sometimes, and this is what I came away with in this one: Don't wait until all the stars align and everything is perfect to start something. A lot of times, the "right time" never comes. Sometimes you just have to say fuck it and dive in head first. Stop waiting for greatness, just BE.  

P.S. : Yes, God uses "bad" words sometimes when we talk. I guess it's His way of getting his point across. He knows that I can handle it, we're cool like that.